I'd written a really long and rambling blog entry exploring the various conversations I've had with others and through books of late, but then decided that maybe it'd be better to cut to the chase.
I'd been thinking a great deal about life and career (and how career fits into life, or defines it more often, within its 40+/hrs demands). In the midst of friends getting married and having babies (and friends who've not and feel somewhat at a loss, too), I've come to the realization that at this point, people expect me to know something... which is understandable, or else what good have I done in the past almost-decade since college?
Now that I'm this far removed from my college self, the "change the world" mentality feels a lot more hollow than it used to, and I've come to the realization that I don't need to live my life trying to help change anything or anyone or evangelizing -- I merely need to live out the values I believe (and prepare to take a hit, or sacrifice, if it comes down to it) and do proficiently the work that makes me truly happy. And no matter where I go from here -- or stay, even -- my own little life's purpose (for me) is nurturing life. That is what actually makes me truly happy. Being a gardener, being a cook, being a friend, being a teammate, being a mom (someday, I mean -- certainly not now). Just being. That makes me happy. In other words, I'm pretty much done with the 'long-suffering' for abstract philosophical/religious conflicts I'll never understand. I am simply choosing to be happy.
I'd been thinking a great deal about life and career (and how career fits into life, or defines it more often, within its 40+/hrs demands). In the midst of friends getting married and having babies (and friends who've not and feel somewhat at a loss, too), I've come to the realization that at this point, people expect me to know something... which is understandable, or else what good have I done in the past almost-decade since college?
Now that I'm this far removed from my college self, the "change the world" mentality feels a lot more hollow than it used to, and I've come to the realization that I don't need to live my life trying to help change anything or anyone or evangelizing -- I merely need to live out the values I believe (and prepare to take a hit, or sacrifice, if it comes down to it) and do proficiently the work that makes me truly happy. And no matter where I go from here -- or stay, even -- my own little life's purpose (for me) is nurturing life. That is what actually makes me truly happy. Being a gardener, being a cook, being a friend, being a teammate, being a mom (someday, I mean -- certainly not now). Just being. That makes me happy. In other words, I'm pretty much done with the 'long-suffering' for abstract philosophical/religious conflicts I'll never understand. I am simply choosing to be happy.
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